failedtofly

Story’s not over yet.

(This one’s still a work in progress, but as I continue to work on it/pray about it, I’m becoming very fond of it - if that EP ever gets released, I’m guessing it’ll be the last track)

I see that you have bruised yourself
with the unforgiving rod of regret.
You see failure and convince yourself
God’s love is some unaffordable debt.
You’re so lost now
and you can’t see how
this could ever end in happiness.
I just want you to know, that as this chapter ends:
This story’s not over yet.

God writes straight with crooked lines.
Out of death He brings life.
The broken, the beaten, restored.
Don’t you dare give up now.
Because God knows the how
Even when we cant see why anymore.

They say that when it rains it pours
but even when it pours, He still reigns.
And I can’t tell you when your suffering will end
But I know that He’ll heal the pain

When it seems like you’ve got nothing left,
This story’s not over yet.

Your story’s not over yet.

Homeward Bound

[I wrote this song over the summer. I know, you can’t read that title without thinking about the movie and talking animals… well take that image of talking animals, now meditate on the Hound of Heaven… who seeks us out constantly and intimately. =D]

My heart is restless/
‘Til I rest in You/
And I will never find peace/
until I find the truth/
‘Cause I’m not searching for love/
In the places where I should/
Show me the way O Lord,/
‘cause I wanna be with you.

I’ve been lost for so long but now I’m found./
Finally free from the chains that held me down./
See the King of Kings has offered me a crown,/
so I’m on my way/
Yes, i’m on my way/
I’m homeward bound.

He Must Increase, I Must Decrease

[a new piece i’m working on]

He must increase
and i must decrease
‘cause otherwise soon i’ll be running on empty

He must increase
and i must decrease
let the old man die
let Life live in me.

What I want (revisited)

So, I wrote that other “What I want” song a long, long time ago.

Then, in 2008, Eddy and I put a new song together that was based off of the older song:

I feel like I’m driving

without a place to go

And I hope that I can find the way

Finally insanity has taken it’s toll

on me

and I hope that I

can find some change

/

what I want is to

just keep wanting you

rather than

the things that I

keep holding on to

/

what i need is to

just keep loving you

and tell the world

what it provides

just won’t do

/

sometimes I wish my life

had a different story

or that somehow I could fastforward to the end

But I know that you

will return in glory

and I will carry my cross

strongly until then.

/

What I want

is you, Lord

What I need

is you, Lord

take everything I have

take everything I am

I place it all,

everything,

I place it in your hands

What I want.

I wrote this song a long time ago when I was trying to figure out what I needed to do with my life:

Lord, I just want to follow your plan

and I know

that I can

The only thing that I fear

is holding on

to my own will.

What I want is to

Just keep wanting you

rather than the things that I keep holding on to

what I want is to

just keep loving you

and tell the world what it provides just will not do.

Only I

The love that destroyed death, has given me new life

Who can kill it? Only I, Only I.

The difference.

I’ve been working on this one for awhile. Let’s call this an observational poem. Not about any particular situation, but situations I see people get into far too often.

The voice isn’t meant to be some perfect guy either, btw.

He has his faults as well.

Enjoy.

You’re right. I don’t like him.

But I don’t have to.

That’s not something even God asks me to do.

And you’re right, we are very different

The difference is: I love you, and he’s just in -

“love” that is, or relationship.

/

And, there’s such a great difference between him and me.

Allow me to try and explain poetically.

He wants you to be his valentine,

I just want you to become a saint.

He thinks being with you is paradise.

I pray that we’ll both find it some day.

He says he completes you & you complete him,

I say there has never been anything missing -

not from you, not from me.

See,

he says “I want you to be my queen.”

I say “I want you to love the King.”

He tells you how you make him feel, but we all know feelings change with the wind.

And although being with you might feel heavenly,

I want you to love God more than you love me.

/

You’re right, we are very different

The difference is I love you, and he’s just in -

“love” that is, or relationship.

/

I realize that you may never be mine,

But he believes that you’re his.

You are not.

Your heart belongs to someone else.

I can handle that.

He, on the other hand,

Well……

I know I can’t keep you, if you aren’t meant for me.

And just ‘cause I feel this way, doesn’t mean we’re meant to be.

And you’re right, part of me is jealous of what he has.

And part of me wishes I had what he had.

But we don’t always get what we want,

God takes that from us to give us what we need.

And if loving you has taught me anything,

Love is always worth the suffering.

/

And you’re right, we are very different

The difference is: I love you, and he’s just in -

“love” that is, or relationship -

And the difference could be summed up like this

He wants to hold your hand,

I want to put you in His.